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Just saw Office Space again. For those of you who've either never seen it before, or have only seen it once on Comedy Central, I highly recommend you go out right now and pick up a copy.

Own it.

Love it.

The best line out of the movie is that human beings are not meant to spend most of their days stuck in a cubicle, staring at a computer screen.

Don't do it.

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Went home this weekend and saw a lot of my friends from home. Most of them have 2 (or more) kids. They are (for the most part) happy.

Sunday morning, after a night of drinking and poker, this hung-over uncle walked the kiddies to the local playground for a little time at the monkey bar. That's when I realized that yours truly is not quite ready for fatherhood yet. I dunno, for a while there I was having dreams of my fictional 3 year old son giving a big hug and saying, "I love you dad!" but right now I just don't feel it. Perhaps my thirst for fatherhood have been quenched by owning my little adorable pug that sees me as dad. But right now, I just don't feel like I'm ready for that lifestyle.

Not yet.

I realized that for the most part, I have been a serial dater. I have never really been single. And not I'm not saying that I wish I was single, but I'm not ready for fatherhood. Papa Wu was a bachelor til he was 40 something. And granted Papa Wu and I have some generation gap issues. Perhaps that's why I always get chocked up at the end of Field of Dream when the son asks his dad, "dad, you wanna play catch?"

I've never played catch with my dad. And god I love my dad. I love him more now than ever. I wish I got to know him better when I was younger. I wish I had spend more time with him in the past. I wish my dad got to see me play basketball/football/volleyball and be a hero. I wish my dad and I were closer. But it's not too late. It's never too late. The good thing is that I feel like my dad and I are closer now than ever before. Although the scary thing is...

I feel like I'm turning into my dad.

Ever realize that you're mimicing your parents nowadays and you're not even doing it on purpose? I do. I feel like I'm doing impressions of my dad all the time.

And damn it feels good to be like Papa Wu.